gel manis

this actually feels a little off for me, to start off a project without stating intent, but i truly miss an avenue of free-flow where we're not overthinking algorithms and content strategies. in fact, i keep finding ways to revisit nostalgic internet - but that's another time, another post, another thought.

what i want to get off my chest right now is far more miniscule (this is in a different font because i copied and pasted it from thesaurus.com to 1. check spelling - which i still don't know how to spell, clearly, because i copied the wrong word indicated by the red underline  2. see if there was a better word to make my writing sound more charming - but i then have to break out of the idea of manufacturing. and let flow), it's about nails.

funny writing about this while solfeggio frequencies blares out my iMac speakers at a vibration that worries if i'm disrupting something internally in the hardware. did that make sense?

i just finished a late afternoon shower - a rare time, but the day happened to pan out this way because today, like many others, i am mentally juggling emotional capacities to take on a to-do list and end up abandoning one if not all aspirations for a productive day. after toying with the idea of surfing, not surfing, going to yoga, not going, doing a 20 minute HIIT, doing only 10 minutes of it, maybe i'll do it later, nah I won't, i finally take a full shower involving two shampoos. a tip i learned on tiktok to extend the days between my next shampoo. 

prior to this shower, i managed to place 7 semi-permi braids,

Peru, 2019

30 minutes of high, high intensity boxing with my trainer,

and korean bbq with my friends. 

I hit my average of 3 days sans-shampoo/water in my hair. Outside of my shower, my gel manicure started to lift even more than before, snagging on my towel. A towel that I bought second-hand at an estate sale because a lived-in towel is far superior to one freshly manufactered overseas. And then I thought to myself, something that is really so fucking benign and i already know the answer, but it brought me to starting a new blogspot: people pick off their gel manicures, right?! and your nails get super weak after?! right?????

over kbbq, where i ate only kimchee, cold noodles, and shisho-wrapped cod, my friend was explaining to me how flimsy her nails were. she folded the disposable place mats a few times to vicersally align her nails to being 'paper thin'. horrifying. what i didn't find horrifying tho, was how she casually loses her toenails here and there (she jokes with the nail technician about getting a discount for having 2 nails missing), and was showing me how a non-nail toe calluses. amazed, i got in with my flashlight and fingers to get a closer look. no one else was down for that.

and i end this new post with a new irrational fear of weak nails, and maybe might lay off gel manis for a long, long time.